You Smile, but you wanna cry

  You talk, but you wanna be quite

You pretend like you happy but you aren’t 

But honestly I’m tired of fighting 

I just wanna be fought for

But yet the worst place I can be is in my head

When I’m Upset 

I shut myself down 

I have no motivation for anything 

I tell myself that nobody cares

That I’m nothing but a failure 

I’m useless

And to think that some people actually don’t

I think about all the negative things in my life

Every single one and I make fun of myself about it

I give myself all the pain thinking I deserve it 

I also do it just to feel something real

Not fake exception or love 

The only true non fake thing I have Pain 

My bestfriend Pain has always been there 

Ever since I was born I saw that demon

The odd part is now I am Pain ‘

I am the demon